As a Christ follower, I have sometimes experienced times when it seemed that God has abandoned me. I know it is not true but sometimes when things are not going my way I tend to ask “Are you real? Have you forgotten me?”. I know that I am not alone in these episodes of doubt and most all Christians will experience periods when they question if God is really there and if He really does know our thoughts and the desires of our heart. Several times when I have been feeling this way, God shows up by giving me a desire of my heart that no one else ever even knew about. Today was one of those days.
I know it may sound silly but this winter I really wanted one of those really cute sleeveless sweaters. My friends would come to cell group wearing a cute long sleeve top on under one of these rockin’ sleeveless sweaters. I knew I could not afford to buy one, but I wanted it anyway. Ali and I went to the mall once and I went into a shop with her and tried one on and as I put it back on the rack I felt a small disappointment in my heart. Silly, I know but I am just being honest.
Another desire has been for a plain black v-neck t-shirt to replace the one I currently wear because it has small holes in the belly area where I think a moth had a snack. I wear this t-shirt a lot because it matches anything that happens to be in my bag when I am traveling. Money is tight and I knew I could not afford to replace the shirt but I still wished I could.
Today, God gave me the jackpot of unspoken wishes in the form of donations from a friend in Port Elizabeth. When I was at her house to pick up donations last week she said that when I was sorting through the bags to feel free to keep anything that I needed first before giving the donations out. Guess what I pulled out of the bag in my size? Yep. I am now the proud owner of a sleeveless sweater and a black v-neck t-shirt.
I thank God for the reminder that He is in the details in my life and for giving me assurance once again that He is there. So what do you think? Am I rockin’ these new to me clothes or what?!?
You are rockin’ it girlfriend!! Happy for you. Love you & miss you.Hugs&kisses from KC.
Aunt Jana
Yes, He longs to give us the desires of our hearts – in His perfect timing. And you are a beautiful young woman of God.
I am a cousin to Darrell’s Aunts Jan and Judy. And I love you guys and bless you for doing God’s work so diligently and so far away from your relatives.
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You are always so good with words, and this blog post put a huge smile on my face. I am happy you got blessed in a way that most take for granted. I kept reading this same blog post over and over again and am thankful that you chose to share this with all of us. We all do have those moments of questioning GOD.Especially in rough points and when tragedies seem to take over in our lives. GOD works in mysterious ways for sure but he always does come through in the end. By the way, you look fantastic!!!!